my "swishy" spot

            210 Days! I can tell already that they are going to go by fast. If you didn't know already, i would say 95% of the people who read this, i am a cancer survivor. Seven years this June. A brain tumor at 15 isn't something I would recommend for anyone let alone myself. When we looked at the scans after surgery and all there was was a round "swishy " spot as my mom called it. Doctors said it was an Astrocytoma Brain Tumor. 

 
And today, I am cancer free. A childhood cancer survivor. However, the tumor and surgery did come with its "leftovers".  I now have a new friend that will probably stick with me for life. I am a 6 year epileptic. In the beginning it was a constant battle. The surgery was in June of 2004 and by October 2004 the Seizures had began. I was taken out of school in December 2004 because we could not get them under control. If i were to have a seizure at school, I could potentially harm myself or others. So, my parents opted for me to be placed into a home bound program. After numerous trips back and forth to Vanderbilt that Winter, i finally went back to school the follow February. Soon after that, Allen and I met. It wasn't weird between us. He looked passed the cancer and the epilepsy to who i was on the inside.

Well today, my mom and I went to the Neurologist. No seizures for almost two years! What a blessing! 

Are things downhill from here? Not a chance. School started yesterday and I am glad I got all the wedding stuff done that I did. Looking at the course load, I am going to be slammed.

Now it's time to switch gears. Bridesmaid dresses are picked, flower girl dresses are chosen, church is reserved, and the color is the final color.

School starts Wednesday. Which means no real down time between school and work. But it also means 150ish days to fit in my dress. 150 days until final fitting.

One of my new years resolution:
Fit into my wedding dress and not have to put the corset in the back.

I want it to be able to zip, no problem. 150 days. I can do it.

The colors of the rainbow

I think picking out the colors that will be the central theme of the wedding has been the hardest thing yet. Yes I know it is January 4 and the wedding is August 13. But, considering I go back to school in a few days and Allen, well sleeps all day and works all night. It just seems best to figure some of this out now, rather than stressing out about it along with school (Physics, Biology, 2 Education classes, and Chemistry Research).

The colors that expressed favoritism by my friends on facebook were as follows:

• yellow
• orange
• pink
• red
• turquoise
• lavender
• blue
• brown
• goldenrod
• champayne
• charcole
• bubble gum pink
• periwinkle 
• light green
• blush
• purple

As many of you know I can not make up my mind about many things. Then i am put in front of 42 colors and told to pick one......very hard to do.

However, we are down to two colors after much deliberation. Solid black for the maid of honor/bridesmaids with either a pink sash or a clover sash. 

We're Engaged!!!

Well folks, it's finally official. We are getting married after all this time. I am so excited.

It was Christmas morning and as tradition in my family goes, we always open presents at my grandmothers Christmas morning as early as people wake up. Which is usually 8 or 9 o'clock now a days. We begin opening presents. My brother got his skateboards, my sister got her leather boots and I clothes and jewelry. Allen had opened my present to him, Call of Duty: Black Ops for XBox. All the presents were opened except for one. His present to me.

Unwrapping the Winnie the Pooh wrapping paper led me to this box. Then i took off the lid......

And found another little box. At this point the whole family was staring. What could it be? Then the next lid....

Allen's Christmas ring tone for me was All I Want For Christmas. Thinking there were no more boxes, there was one more.....

At this point in the opening process I started crying. As i look up he is on his knee in his comfy sweatpants in front of my whole family.

I don't actually remember saying yes. Actually i don't think i said yes. Maybe it was just assumed. Not sure. hahaha.